I've been there before as well, sometimes all too often, yet I often choose the numbing of "activity" over the beholding, the ignoring over the anointed one and and the jumble of my thoughts over the peace of His word.
I'm sorry you've been having a hard time lately. I've been reminded several times lately how it has been such a short time ago that I was jittery from notifications every 45 seconds, anxious with thoughts that would never come to be, and nervous about conversations that would never be had. I'm thankful for your writing, and your vulnerability, as it is some of what has helped me start choosing the quiet, peaceful, loving presence of my Father over the noise of my thoughts and social media and tv.
I've been there before as well, sometimes all too often, yet I often choose the numbing of "activity" over the beholding, the ignoring over the anointed one and and the jumble of my thoughts over the peace of His word.
I'm sorry you've been having a hard time lately. I've been reminded several times lately how it has been such a short time ago that I was jittery from notifications every 45 seconds, anxious with thoughts that would never come to be, and nervous about conversations that would never be had. I'm thankful for your writing, and your vulnerability, as it is some of what has helped me start choosing the quiet, peaceful, loving presence of my Father over the noise of my thoughts and social media and tv.
I'm praying for you!
I'm also reminded of these last lines from John O'Donohue's blessing, For One Who Is Exhausted. I hope it brings comfort.
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Draw alongside the silence of stone
Until its calmness can claim you.
Be excessively gentle with yourself.
Stay clear of those vexed in spirit.
Learn to linger around someone of ease
Who feels they have all the time in the world.
Gradually, you will return to yourself,
Having learned a new respect for your heart
And the joy that dwells far within slow time.